Toxic relationships are always harder to end.
People in them are people who never lose hope in a better tomorrow and they think that with the right amount of love and affection, everything can change for the better. But that is wrong.
If you are living with a toxic man, he will never be able to change, especially because of you. If he changes, it will be because he wants to do that.
He will never accept the fact that he was so weak that he transformed into someone he didn’t want to become because of a woman. And that is where all the problems begin.
A toxic man will do things that satisfy him only and he won’t care about you or your wishes.
He will constantly make you feel remorse because you are happy. And you will see that everything is fine with you because being happy is a good and normal thing to do.
But in his presence, you will feel down and you won’t talk so much.
Maybe that will happen because you don’t know what to say to a man who never listens to you. Maybe when you are with him, you are wondering what your life would be like if you left him.
Then, you start thinking that you are not good enough and that maybe another man will not love you like your partner does. But darling, listen to me please—he is doing everything but loving you.
He is making a hell out of your life every single day. Whenever you want to fly, he comes to cut your wings. And you are just feeding your love with the crumbs from his table.
Because that is the only love he gives you. He was never a man good enough to give you all the love he has. He is a cheapskate and he will never go all in. But he demands that you prove to him how much you love him.
And no matter how much you practice what you will tell him and make him think about his mistakes, somehow in the end, he is always right. He has the ability to brainwash you and that is his tool to keep you close.
You know, once he convinces you that you are not worthy, he knows that you will stay.
He knows that no matter how bad things can get that you will always stick with him. Because for you, it is better to live in an almost relationship that having no relationship at all.
I know that you are a good person and that you think people around you are good as well. But that is so wrong. People around you are just there to enjoy seeing you down. Especially the man you are living with.
I know that you want to leave him, but you don’t know what your life will look like after him. I won’t lie to you—it will be bad at the beginning.
There will be many sleepless nights and you will wonder what could have happened if you had just tried a little bit harder.
I know you will cry yourself to sleep every night wishing he was there just to hug you with his toxic hands. Because you only know those hands and no matter how toxic he is, you love the feeling when he says that he loves you.
You know that he is not telling you the truth, but you are refusing to believe in it.
I know it is hard to walk away from someone you have been living with so many years. But trust me, that is not the kind of life you deserve.
You deserve much more than an almost relationship.
You deserve to be kissed in your sleep while he is telling you that he is so damn lucky to have you near.
You deserve to be told that you are worthy and that you are enough.
You deserve to be told that no matter how many girls want to be with him, he only wants one and it is you.
You deserve the love that feels like home but unfortunately, he can’t provide you with that.
He can just be the man who will beat you to an emotional death and leave you suffering in your own pain. He won’t even ask you if you are okay or if you want him to do something for you.
He is that kind of a man—selfish and egoistic—so don’t expect the love that you crave so much from him.
If you want to be happy and fulfilled, it is better to make some important cuts in your life now. Because the more time you spend with him, the more difficult it will be to leave him.
Do yourself a favor and stay away from this man who isn’t capable of loving.
You know that you tried to change and help him so many times, but you can’t help him if he doesn’t want to be helped.
And one day, when you’ve finally had enough and leave, he will see what it feels like to live without you. He will be totally lost without you but that is a price he has to pay because he didn’t give you the love you deserved.
And when you finally do that, when you finally walk away, you will become a totally new woman. You will feel like you were born again and you will find your lost self-esteem.
You will find your true self that you lost a long time ago because you were so preoccupied with taking care of him.
And remember: a happy relationship doesn’t look like yours with him so make sure that something like that never happens to you again. No matter how much you care for someone, you need to put yourself first.
And no matter how much you love him, you need to love yourself more!