Dear ‘Love of my life’,
I am writing this letter for a large number of reasons. Firstly, I am writing it because I want to finally let go of this pain that is inside me. Secondly, I am writing it because I want you to have a piece of paper that will be a reminder of all that nasty things you did to me—and we both know that there were many of them.
You see, I always dreamed that I will marry one guy only and that it is going to be forever. I thought to myself that I will experience the kind of love that feels like home—pure, innocent and lovely. I had plans for our lives. I imagined our kids running through the house while you are chasing them. I imagined our Christmases spent together while we are watching movies under the blanket and drinking hot chocolate. You know, I dreamed about a lot of things—beautiful ones.
But one day, all of a sudden, I found out that you cheated on me. I still remember the day when you came home and admitted that there was someone else in your life. Someone who makes your heart beat faster. Someone who makes you stop breathing for a second. Someone who represents fulfilling all your dreams.
And it was too bad that woman wasn’t me. After you told me everything about her, I thought that you were kidding with me. I thought that you just wanted to see my reaction. But you were dead serious. And from the look into your eyes, I realized it was over. Everything that we had been building all those years was over. Every dream, every hope, every aspiration. It was all in vain.
I just stood there, completely broken, staring at the wall in front of me. I was trying to say something but there wasn’t anything clever coming out of my mouth. So, I just left. I packed my bags without a word and I left you. I felt like an injured wolf who needs to be alone to heal his wounds. My ego was shaken. My whole world was falling apart and I didn’t have any common sense.
That day I spent so much time thinking about you and our life together. I was so mad at you because you chose her over me. I just hope she is worth it. I hope she is worth all my pain and my tears. And I hope that you will be able to develop a normal and stable relationship with her. Maybe you didn’t love me enough. Maybe our relationship already died but we weren’t aware of that fact. Maybe we let our happiness slip away. And just maybe we didn’t put enough effort into our story.
When I look back, I don’t regret anything. I am a strong woman and I can deal with my pain. Honestly, it is much better that you left me, but I would prefer that you hadn’t cheated on me. I think I deserved that after all those years we spent together. Unfortunately, you did it on your own. You were selfish and you weren’t thinking about me. What else could I have expected from a man like you?
You broke me and you didn’t even ask me if I needed any help. We could have talked about it like adults. You could have been sincere with me. You could have told me that you don’t feel anything for me and that you want to be with someone else. But you didn’t. And that is breaking my heart.
You didn’t just cheat on me, you cheated on us. You didn’t just break my heart, you broke our future. And that is something I will never forgive you.
And in the end, I have a message for you: “You can continue cheating yourself, but ME, never again!”